The First Church of Both/And: Introduction

[Note: I apologize for the length. If I thought more clearly, I’d use fewer words. But my intention is to follow this introduction with a series of more blog length postings about areas Christians should pursue both/and.]

I love the Church—the Bride of Christ, the Body of Christ, the called-out people of God. I have been a part of traditional denominations, New Testament non-denominational churches and attended Catholic, Presbyterian, and Episcopalian services. Yet, I, and many others I suspect, am continually frustrated by the Church’s tendency to never miss an opportunity to miss an opportunity. Over the years, what has frustrated me most is that the Church often forces believers into false choices.

Theological and ecclesiastical traditions often force us to choose between two good things when God desires we have both. Do you want the fruit of the Holy Spirit or the gifts? Do you want to save the souls of people or meet their physical needs? Do you want to do the work of evangelism or be a powerful intercessor? Do you want to follow God’s Word or the supernatural leading of the Holy Spirit? Do you want to care for the planet or get people saved before Jesus returns? Do you want to raise up a mighty army that will do spiritual warfare or tenderly shepherd and heal God’s lambs? Do you want to live holy and unstained by the world or infuse the world with the light and love of Jesus? Are we going celebrate the grace of God that covers a multitude of sin or pursue ethical holiness and high standards of moral conduct? Many Christians are weary of the First Church of Either/Or.

Through this false either/or the enemy robs the Church of the blessings and callings of God. If Satan can’t persuade us to surrender something God has given us or to forsake a biblical truth, he will try to convince us that to grab one we must let go of the other. Or he will inspire us to emphasize one truth while neglecting the other.  In Ecclesiastes 7:18 Solomon says, “It is good to grasp the one and not let go of the other. The man who fears God will avoid all extremes” (NIV). So why don’t Christians just grab both? When traditions say we must choose one or the other, why don’t we just say, “Both/and”? The reasons we don’t grab both are easy to identify. 

On the grassroots level God’s people often seek to establish a tribal identity that defines them and in some way elevates them above other believers. Paul rebukes the Corinthian believers for distinguishing themselves according to who they followed:

My brothers, some from Chloe’s household have informed me that there are quarrels among you. What I mean is this: One of you says, “I follow Paul” another, “I follow Apollos, another, “I follow Cephas,” still another, “I follow Christ.” (I Cor. 1:12)

It seems clear that in this case it was not the church leaders that were encouraging the division in the church, it was the people themselves. Because God has not entrusted all his truth to one leader, this instinct toward tribalism often robs us of essential biblical truths. In rejecting one God-ordained leader for another, we often get one truth but lose another.

We should note, however, that Paul includes in his rebuke those who simply say, “I follow Christ.” Today some believers are so eager to disassociate themselves with other Christians, denominations, or political factions that they only identify themselves as, “Followers of Jesus.” Of course, this can be done arrogantly or humbly. Saying, “Like you, I am a follower of Jesus” is inclusive. Saying, “Unlike you denominational folks, I follow Christ alone” is perhaps the worst kind of tribalism. 

Of course, tribalism can also come from the top down. Having distinct doctrines that set some believers off from other Christians creates organizational loyalty and a reliable financial base for growing a ministry. Being able to say, “We believe this, but not that” often clarifies a group’s reason for existing. And the group’s existence justifies its paid clergy. This not to say that money is the motive of these pastors, but the professionalization of pastoral ministry certainly makes tribal identity and distinctions important.

Another reason that we fall prey to the either/or-ism is our very hunger for balance. When God uses a leader to restore a lost truth or emphasis to the church, many believers run in mass to that side of the boat—threatening to capsize the more traditional church. For instance, it is good news that God has called believers to co-labor with Him through intercessory prayer for revival. What a privilege to be used by God to bring revival in our generation! It easy to regard with pious contempt churches who simply pastor the flock, keep people walking faithfully with God, and evangelize the lost. But isn’t this a case where we should grab hold of one without letting go of the other? When the pendulum swings, we should not be found chasing it to the other extreme.

It may be that God has been working to restore to the Church much that has been lost or neglected. Protestant Reformers restored the idea of salvation by grace to the church, Methodists and holiness preachers restored the deep working of the Spirit in creating holy character, Pentecostalism restored faith in the power and gifts of the Holy Spirit, more recently non-denominational charismatic groups have emphasized the gifts of healing and prophecy. However, each group often opposed the next work of God in restoration. Catholics opposed Luther and Calvin, Luther and Calvin opposed the Anabaptists, Anglicans opposed the Methodists, Quakers, and Baptists, then Methodists opposed the holiness folks, Nazarenes opposed the Pentecostals, and Pentecostal denominations opposed the Third Wave charismatics. Ironically, groups who were born out of God restoring something new usually end up rejecting every new thing that comes after them. This overview should produce more than a heavy sigh—it should make us impatient with anyone and anything that cuts us off from the all God has.

Much of our exasperation, however, must be directed toward our own lack of discipline. Few people rally around the message of moderation or balance. Leaders who take extreme positions immediately gain followers and attention. American believers are always looking for the latest thing. American Christians have embraced the marketing idea that branding is essential to church growth. It is hard to market what C. S. Lewis called “mere Christianity”. Too often we order our Christianity the way we order our lattes: “I will have one low-legalism, contemporary worship high-tech church with a sprinkling of social justice, please.” We need to repent of the consumer model that keeps us shopping for a church that fits our style.

In a similar way, Christian’s have often based doctrines on their own experiences with God. Those who have a sudden conversion experience often make it a doctrine that no one can gradually come to God. Those who receive the Holy Spirit in a definite second work, or with speaking in tongues, or with prophecy, or with the laying on of hands, or quietly at home often turn their experience into a doctrine that shuts out other groups and leads us to ignore all the other ways God may desire to work. A careful look at Scripture reveals weird and wonderful variety of ways God visits his people. We should rejoice in all the biblical ways people experience God, but should not reject something as unbiblical just because it is not our experience. God’s Word, not our experience or traditions, should define wholeness for the Church.

We should also forsake our own laziness. Paul exhorts us to do the hard work it takes to rightly discern and embrace the things God is restoring:

     Do not put out the Spirit’s fire; do not treat prophecies with contempt. Test   everything. Hold on to what is good. Avoid every kind of evil. (I Thess. 5:19-22 NIV)

It is so much easier to test nothing and chase after every spiritual fad or test nothing and reject everything that is new. Sloth can be the enemy of both the complacent and adventurous. Testing everything requires real work: the study of Scripture and maturity in discerning God’s Spirit.

Many specific consequences of this either/or-ism can be identified, but a general one is the perception (in the United States) that Christians are hypocrites. Surveys (see unChristian by David Kinnaman) have shown that this is not just the opinion of non-Christians—it is even the perception of young Christians. The world and the younger generation of Christians see hypocrisy because we often pick and choose the biblical emphases that suit our taste. Both groups want to see Christians who are whole and walk in all God’s ways. In other words, they want to see Jesus.

Much of Jesus’ Sermon on the Mount urges us to be complete or whole in our walk. Jesus says, “Therefore you are to be perfect as your heavenly Father is perfect.” We often spend so much time talking about what this doesn’t mean that we don’t ask what it does. Here the emphasis is not perfect performance, but on lacking nothing and holding all things in perfect balance. Jesus is not telling us to be error free, he is telling us we can have the wholeness (perfection) that allows God to be both just and merciful, holy and compassionate—the wholeness that makes Jesus the Lamb of God and Lion of Judah.

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Hobbits in Burma

In eastern Burma a group called the Free Burma Rangers brings food and medical help to the thousands of Karen refugees who  are displaced by the brutal oppression of the Burmese Army and dictatorship. The FBR is a mix of missionaries, relief workers, and guerilla fighters. In an interview with Mother Jones magazine (March 3, 2010) Tha U Wa A Pa, a graduate of Fuller Seminary, former U. S. Army Ranger, and FBR leader said, “On the surface it seems like Mordor has all the strength and power and might. But if our fellowship of hobbits stays united, good will defeat evil in the end.”

It is good to know there are hobbits fighting evil in the jungles of Burma, but it is also amazing how Tolkien’s works, once dismissed as escapist fantasy, continue to powerfully impact the “real” world–even the fate of nations.

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The Glory of Useless Knowledge: Part Three

So how should we proceed once we have fully embraced wonder and joy as the foundation of knowledge? Our first duty is to identify and avoid whatever kills wonder. Chesterton said, “The world will never starve for want of wonders; but only for want of wonder.” We must never forsake studying what we love because others think it isn’t cool. Nor should we feign interest in something just because it is trendy. We should treasure the kind of study in which we can lose ourselves, for “losing ourselves” is inherently good and spiritually cleansing. We must balance the need for career training with genuine education for the joy of knowing. This will often mean taking more responsibility for our education and recognizing that what happens apart from classrooms and curriculum is often most important. Chasing after grades, as important as they are, should not crowd out education and should not be allowed to kill our curiosity.

Someone once wrote a book on things he learned while looking up the answer to a completely different question. The joy in learning gives room for digressions, detours, and bunny trails. In his Leaves of Grass, the great American poet Walt Whitman speaks of allowing his soul to loaf. Many English writers like Wordsworth made afternoon walks and conversation a habit.  Sometimes it means standing still. Notice the strangeness of the word “understand”; it suggests we must stand under (not over) something to truly know it. Once while I was walking in the woods with the renowned naturalist Robert Pyle, he instructed our little group to stand perfectly still. Soon we could hear the tapping of a woodpecker, the chirr of a squirrel, and the dripping of dew from the branches. In our stillness we also saw beetles scurrying across the path and the shadow of a hawk soaring overhead. As we stood still under the forest canopy, we began to understand it. Wandering, loafing, and standing under can keep the joy of learning alive.

In other words, we should seek elf magic and not orc magic. Tolkien explained that the magic of elves was based on understanding and nourishing the world around them. They loved trees and studied them until they could wake them. Orcs on the other hand sought knowledge that gave them power over—they refused to “stand under”. One kind of knowledge was motivated by love, the other by the desire to exploit. One approach required patient and humble observation, the other rushed to cut the trees to fire the engines of destruction.

But sometimes God may put it in our heart to go on learning expeditions. For me this often takes the form of a reading binge where I will power through ten or twelve books on a specific topic or by a specific author. I have done this on sustainable agriculture, holocaust rescuers, early church history, fairy tales, William Faulkner, Dostoevsky, C. S. Lewis, G. K. Chesterton, George MacDonald, and Shakespeare. The fun of an expedition is that you get to penetrate to the heart of something. After reading C. S. Lewis intensely, I feel like my brain has been tuned up and my imagination cleaned up. And in all our wanderings and more deliberate expeditions, we often achieve the holy grail of education: synthesis. That is where a truth in Shakespeare connects to something said by C. S. Lewis and is then echoed by Wendell Berry in The Gift of Good Land.

We must also reject the false dichotomy between sacred and secular learning. Although we need not approach every book as Scripture, we should expect the Holy Spirit to actively guide all of our studies. We should be inviting and expecting the Holy Spirit’s commentary on all that we read. Christ promised that the Holy Spirit would lead us into all truth, so we can trust God not only to help us discern what is true and false, but to connect one truth with another. As the Holy Spirit guides believers into the wonder of synthesis, they discover that deep calls unto deep—that the truths in one area echo the truths in another. We can discover that no knowledge is useless.

Lastly, we must nourish the spirit of play and recognize play as one of the highest and holiest ways of engaging the world around us. Celebrating, delighting, and basking in the goodness of God’s creation should be the defining character of Christian education. The kingdom of heaven and the kingdom of true knowledge belong to those who enter as children ready to play.

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The Glory of Useless Knowledge: Part Two

If ever there was a champion of useless knowledge, it was G. K. Chesterton. In the introduction to his book Tremendous Trifles, he urges us to see the wonders around us:

None of us think enough of these things on which the eye rests. Why should the eye be so lazy? Let us exercise the eye until it learns to see the startling facts that run across the landscape as plain as a painted fence. Let us be ocular athletes. Let us learn to write essays on a stray cat or a coloured cloud.

As we read through Tremendous Trifles, we discover that in his essays Chesterton practiced what he preached, especially in “What I Found in My Pocket.” He also asserts that such ocular athleticism may be the key to adventure:

In other words, we may, by fixing our attention almost fiercely on the facts before us, force them to turn into adventures; force them to give up their meaning and fulfill their mysterious purpose.

As Chesterton suggests, simply seeing the world around us is the first step to discovering its secrets.

I learned this in a powerful way when my wife and I moved from the Pacific Northwest to Olathe, Kansas. Compared to the mountains and beaches of the southern coast of Oregon, Kansas was a chigger-filled wasteland. But year after year, with the help of a stack of field guides, I taught myself the names of trees, wildflowers, birds, and mammals. With my ankles bathed in bug spray, I tramped through woods and grasslands learning where I might spot a blue grosbeak or a jack-in-the-pulpit. I learned the seasons when edible greens and hickory nuts could be gathered. My contempt for the land turned to love. That strange place became home. Frequented meadows and streams became friends. I truly learned to see the place. But as Chesterton suggests with his phrase “ocular athletes”, learning to see Kansas was not easy—it was an “ocular marathon”.

In all my endeavors to become an ocular athlete, I have remained steadfastly and proudly amateur. Unlike dedicated or competitive birds, I have even failed to keep a list of the birds I have seen. The word amateur comes from the Latin root for lover, so the expansion of amateur interests and curiosity requires the enlarging of our hearts to love and marvel at the world around us. Today professions often demand a high degree of specialization, but Christians are called to be generalists at heart because all truth is God’s truth and this truly is our Father’s world.

We should also recognize that in some ways the intense study of anything opens door to everything. Someone’s stamp collection can become a commentary on world history and geography. In a very literal way, the study of the smallest subatomic particles may unlock cosmic mysteries. Tolkien captures this truth in the story of “Leaf by Niggle”. Niggle paints a leaf that becomes a tree, and the tree becomes a forest, and it eventually becomes the land in which he and his neighbor live and work together. One of the best examples of the triumph of amateurism may be Tolkien’s The Lord of the Rings. These stories began when Tolkien came across the names of some elves and dwarfs in Icelandic literature. He then wondered what kind of language elves might speak and, after teaching himself Finnish, began inventing several dialects of elvish. Tolkien then began thinking about what kind stories elves might tell in this language. One curiosity led to another and resulted in the creation of hobbits, Middle Earth, The Lord of the Rings, and in his The Silmarillion a narrative of creation. As suggested by his semi-allegorical story “Leaf by Niggle”, Tolkien was conscious that his elvish hobby had kept him from accomplishing much professional scholarship during his tenure at Oxford, but it is his love of elves and hobbits that has secured him enduring fame. We should also note that although Tolkien seemed to retreat into an imagined world of his own creation, in this world he could comment freely upon all the things more important to this life: perseverance, loyalty, duty, humility, hope, pity, and the battle against evil.

The line between the amateur and the pure scientist is often as thin as a paycheck. If we define pure research as a search for knowledge apart from possible applications, we see that there is little difference between the pure scientist and the amateur. I recently attended a talk on sandy beach ecology that posed several questions about why the population of blood worms fell off dramatically within the wetland tidal zone. One hypothesis was that the predatory sand worm (looking like something from Herbert’s Dune) kept the blood worms in the higher zone. Of course, practical applications of all this wormy scholarship are not immediately obvious. But what was obvious is that the speaker loved this stuff—just like the most passionate amateur. His scholarship was play. And in many ways his Ph. D. was simply a license to play in the area he loved. Even in scholarship, love never fails.

It is significant that as the modern age rejected Christian faith, writers began to describe ennui (or boredom) as part of the misery of the human condition. In fact, at the end of the 19th century a cultivated boredom with life became a common characteristic of aesthetes and the intelligentsia. When the perceived absence of God became a philosophical dogma in existentialism, boredom became a major philosophical concern. Curiosity, wonder, and adventure are rooted in the conviction that the world is endlessly interesting because the God that created us (and our capacity to know the world) also created all that surrounds us. Our minds and imaginations fit this world and this world yields it secrets to our minds. Therefore everything connects; everything fits. When we consider the lilies of the fields, we really do see something about God’s care for what he loves. The metaphor of rebirth that encompasses us each spring is not just a human fantasy or sentiment; it is a genuine truth about life and about God.

The Christian faith should create in us a joyful curiosity about the world around. Christians should be a tribe of amateurs who find God’s truth in all truth and therefore love all things. We should be intrigued by facts, not afraid of them. Pure science should be, and often has been, great fields of play for Christians. God still invites us to see what he has made, give it a name, and say it is good.

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The Glory of Useless Knowledge: Part One

In Genesis we are told that after each act of creation God looked at what he had made and saw that it was good. At the conclusion of the creation narrative, we are told, “God saw all that He had made, and behold, it was very good” (Genesis 1:31 NASB). We should note that God did not say what it was good for. Nor did God look over all creation and pronounce it, “Useful.” Just as God “saw” and then delighted in what He had made, we are called to see the world and then delight in its goodness. God saw and declared the goodness of creation even before He had created Adam and Eve, so its goodness is not tied to the benefits it offers humans. It is simply good.

God invites Adam to enjoy this goodness by bringing him each of the animals to name. If we imaginatively reconstruct this scene, we see that this is the first example of science. Adam carefully observed each animal and then named it. Today we would call this taxonomy. Of course, we have no idea whether Adam recognized families or any of our present systems of classification, but observing, describing, and naming are still the essence of science.

On a relational level, observing and naming the animals was an invitation to share in God’s own delight of what He made. We can almost imagine God turning to Adam and saying, “Wait until you see this next one; you will really like it!” God must have delighted in Adam’s surprise and joy at each new creature.

All this delight in creation has very little to do with its usefulness. All Adam and Eve needed for food was supplied by the fruit trees God had planted in the garden. We are never told that God intended Adam and Eve to put any of the animals to work. When Adam was looking at the animals, he wasn’t seeing a way to pull a plow, or steaks and pork chops. God and Adam, perhaps sitting together on a hill while animals trotted by, were engaging in a kind of play.

When a child delights in the smoothness of a rock, the coolness of a stream on a hot summer day, or delights in the happy bounce of a dog let off the leash, he or she is replaying Eden. Our first response to the world should be, “It is good, it is very good.” Our celebration of the goodness of what God has made often takes the form of play, which in many ways is the most godly (God-like) and highest expression of education.

This learning and knowing simply for the joy of knowing is godly in several ways. First, it is not egocentric. Often when we ask what something is good for, we are really asking what good can it do me—how can I use it. Too often our eye and attention skips over that which offers no obvious benefit. There’s something holy about delighting in something simply for the wonder of what it is. Second, simple delight in the goodness of things frees us from the control of what others think. It is sad to watch a child give up building sandcastles because some friend says, “That’s dumb.” Education founded on joy and wonder frees us from the corrupting quest for status and acclaim. Delight is usually a more trustworthy guide to what we should learn.

The paradox here is that the more childlike our pursuit of knowledge is, the more like God we are. The maturity pragmatism offers is false because it invites us to view all we learn in terms of its personal benefit to us. And despite the title of this piece, the real point is that no knowledge is useless because God has created all things. But like many biblical paradoxes, the usefulness of knowledge is often found only if it is not sought. All delight in creation are expressions of worship and communion with God—the creator. Worship and communion, however, are not usually high on our list of pragmatic values even though it is that for which we were created.

Lest anyone think I am making too much of these passages from Genesis, let me point out that Solomon “spoke of trees, from the cedar that is in Lebanon even the hyssop that grows on the wall; he spoke of animals and birds and creeping things and fish.” The cedar trees were certainly a useful building material, but hyssop was essentially a weed that sprung up everywhere even in walls. In Genesis, God pronounced creeping things good, and here they are included in Solomon’s discourses. Today we would say Solomon was a botanist, ornithologist, zoologist, and entomologist. Many of the Proverbs are presented as wise observations on the nature of life, man, and even the natural world. Christ urged his disciples to “consider the lilies of field” and entrust themselves to God’s care. The foundation of education—especially Christian education should be observation and delight.

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Introduction: The Glory of Useless Knowledge

[Note: This is the first of several blogs presenting ideas I shared at the 2012 OYAN Summer  Writing Workshop in a talk titled “Of Mice and Miracles”]

We are now living under the tyranny of America’s only home-grown philosophy, pragmatism. The worse the economy becomes and the higher the price for college gets, the more we all want an education that gets us a job. There is even a movement to force colleges to offer students full disclosure of how much money they can make with each major and degree. In my classes I often have full attendance only when a quiz is scheduled. I regularly hear, “Will that be on the test?” And in the halls of every college that has general education requirements, one hears students grumbling, “I don’t know when I will every use this junk!”

Vocational and technical colleges have even launched advertising campaigns claiming that unlike other colleges, they will only teach you stuff you can use. In the quest for education that leads to careers, Americans are a lot like tots playing soccer—a little mob of kids chasing the ball all over the field. Colleges notice that baby-boomers are retiring, so they train a lot of nurses. But by the time the students get trained there is a surplus of nurses so the college runs to the next big thing—computer programming. And then the “tech bubble” bursts.

As a parent I too want good jobs for my kids. And if a person is going to go deeply in debt for college, it just makes sense that the graduate needs to make enough to pay off the loans. I get this. However, even though training for a job is wise, it should not be confused with education. In fact, education may have very little to do with career training. The heart of real education will often be what students discover and pursue on our own.

The beginning point isn’t a certain curriculum or methodology; it is embracing a biblical approach to education. Unfortunately many Christian parents and educators have been infected with the spirit of pragmatism and have strayed from truly biblical values. As we will see, the biblical focus of education is not utilitity but rather joy and wonder.

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Gold Fever

This afternoon Teckla and I took off to the beach at Seven Devils Wayside. A steady and cool breeze had swept away the clouds and fog of recent weeks. The sky was a shimmering light blue. The late afternoon sun gleamed in the wet sand and flashed in the white crests of the breakers. Out of the willows and twinberries flowed a small creek that fanned out across the sand and into the sea.

As we walked down to the beach from the parking lot, I noticed two people crouched near the edge of the creek, their hats pulled down and their backs turned away from the beach. They were hunched over pans, picking out flecks of gold with tweezers. This snapshot has stuck in my mind: two people with their backs turned to the stunning beauty of the sun, sea, sand as they pan for gold. Looking at the price of gold per ounce ($1,623) right now is enough to make me grab a pan. And there actually is gold in the black sand that streaks these beaches. A few miles south at Whiskey Run beach, thousands of miners discovered gold in the black sands and formed a small boom town until a storm swept the gold sands away. There’s nothing foolish in their looking for gold.

I should also make clear that these folks were probably nice people even if they had  a little gold fever. There is certainly nothing wrong with them pursuing their hobby. So my point really has nothing to do with them and everything to say about me. Seeing them with their backs turned from the light, picking through the grit for bits of gold made me wonder how often I look for bits of glory while missing the glory that fills the whole horizon. As the sun sank lower, I sat on the beach enjoying the fresh breeze, the blues of sky and sea, and the wash of sunlight that turned the whole beach to gold.

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The Grace of Grace

I am sometimes struck by thoughts that at the moment seem quite profound—yet may be to everyone else quite obvious. I fear this may be one. All of this meditation on love has sprung from thoughts about the grace of Grace. Recently I was the unworthy recipient of some precious expressions of love and appreciation at a writing workshop at which I spoke. One young lady, Grace, was especially kind in her words of appreciation. Her sweet spirit and gratitude was touching. As I was thinking about Grace, I found myself wanting to be better because of her goodness and kindness. Through her love, God’s grace touched me.

As I look back upon the people who have influenced me most, I can see that whenever a good person has loved me, I have wanted to become a better person. It was my parents’ unconditional love, not a fear of punishment that first moved me to pursue God. In them holiness was not negation—not clean, but sterile. It was more like Christmas: joyful, meaningful, alive, and rich. Their holiness was more feast than fast, more of a present than a sacrifice. Their gentle and constant love drew me toward God.

When I first met my wife Teckla in college, it was her simple goodness that captured my heart. As just a friend, she loved me and made me want to be more than I was. In fact, she always saw, and amazingly still sees, more in me than I saw in myself. She changed me by simply loving me. I was never a reclamation project to be hammered into shape with sermonettes, guilt trips, and manipulation. Love was enough.

And of course, my kids have innocently loved me and like many fathers I have wanted to live in a way worthy of that love. It is not, for me, just a fear of disappointing my kids or my wife or God that motivates me. My response to love is more an expression of gratitude and hope. Living clean and right is just a way of saying thank you for the love so freely given—so undeserved. When I see myself through the eyes of those who love me, I have hope in the power of God’s grace. Their love gives me the courage to grow.

Okay, so all I am really saying is love never fails—not a new insight I suppose. Love never fails to move me where sermons don’t and logic can’t. Love draws and pulls us toward God when nothing else can push us.

 

 

 

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Do We Need to Love Ourselves?

The exhortation to love ourselves, one heard in many churches today, would have surprised early believers. For centuries Christians have assumed that self-love is an enemy of holiness: the opposite of generosity and humility. But western Christianity has been infected with a religious strain of the self-esteem virus rampant in our culture.

There is, of course, a simple logic to this cry for self-love. Pastors and Christian self-help writers have looked at the command to love our neighbors as ourselves (Matthew 22:39) and argued that we can’t possibly do this if we don’t first love ourselves. The logic here is sound, but misses the point of the command. These verses are not, and should not be made into, an exhortation to love ourselves and improve our self-esteem. The command to love our neighbors as ourselves simply recognizes that we all, despite what we may say, do indeed love ourselves.

Immediately someone will bring up cases, sometimes their own, where a person hated themselves for being fat, ugly, and pimply. But if we think about it for a moment, we quickly realize that if we did not love ourselves, we wouldn’t care how we looked. After all, if we truly hated someone, we would probably be glad he or she is ugly. If anything good happened to a person we hate, we would grit our teeth in evil envy. But those claiming to hate themselves still welcome personal good fortune. In fact, too much self-love actually creates the feelings that get labeled as self-hatred. The more I focus on myself, the more unhappy I become with my looks, my achievements, and my status. The more I look around at what others have, the more “I hate” my own achievements and myself.  What we often label as “self-hatred” is usually just another expression of self-love.

Living a life based on self-esteem is like driving a car with slow leak in one of the tires. We are always checking the tire; always pumping it up. It’s distracting and tiresome. We can never just hop in the car and go.  A slow leak in our self-esteem means we spend way too much time gaging our status—scrambling after something to pump up our worth. As Christians we can’t just relax and enjoy the journey.

The biblical answer to low self-esteem is not self-love or positive affirmations. The biblical solution is self-forgetfulness. Jesus has called us to follow him with wild abandon, setting our hand to the plow and not looking back. He has called us to forget about ourselves, become a servant of all, and trust our lives into his care. Paul declared this freedom from self-absorbed living central to his Christian life:

I have become crucified with Christ; and it is no longer as I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me. Galatians 2:20 (NASB)

The arrogant egotist and the self-loathing reject equally need the glorious freedom offered by self-forgetfulness. When our heart is enlarged enough, when it becomes full enough of love to rejoice in the blessings, talents, and success of our neighbors as though our own, the trickle of joy becomes a flood. Because we have been made free to love, the blessings that fall into the lives of those we love flow into our hearts. A river with a small headwater but many tributaries becomes mighty by the time it reaches the sea.  The paradox is that when we lose ourselves in loving others, we find ourselves. When we get small, our life gets big. Jesus calls us to follow him. Let’s grab a cross and go.

 

 

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The Clothes Unmake the Man

This morning I got up and pulled on some cover-alls. It took awhile to find them in the closet. Our church was offering free-oil changes and safety inspections to senior citizens and those on limited incomes. Bob, our master mechanic with about 60 years of experience, showed up in jeans and a T-shirt. As an English teacher, I didn’t bring many skills to the task–but people often talked to me first because I had on the greasy, paint- splattered cover-alls. I guess I looked like a grease-monkey.

Even though I was only pouring oil and checking the air in the tires, I found that my years of teaching at the college had given me one valuable skill. Even when I had no idea what I was talking about, I could still say stuff with great authority. So with knowing looks and an air of authority, I said, “Yep, your oil was dirty and the left rear tire was 10 psi low. You’re losing tread on the edge of  that tire so you may have a slow leak. You may want to get that tire checked.” And if they had asked, I would have told them (wrongly) how to fix their transmission. After-all, I had on cover-alls.

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